My spiritual journey
08.06.2026 - Kambo and Rapéh
Up at 5:30 - walk & wild flowers.
I feel GOOD. I feel strong. I am not afraid.
I trust Ixchel & Milton immensely - I trust the medicine to provide what I need! Positive results and changes that will come from the medicine and the work to follow.
Empty stomach - lots of agua, salt, vitamin C & electrolytes. Kambo and Rapéh today. This will cleanse and prepare my mind & body for Iboga.
The opportunity to be here is truly a blessing. This medicine has opened the possibility of finding purpose, clearing blocks, healing what needs to be healed, and creating space for reinvention. Somehow, guidance came from multiple directions at once, leading me to this path—and opening the door at exactly the moment I needed it.
Let the training begin.
Kambo
One small burn with an incense to the inside of both my ankles. Graze the wound open. Medicine applied.
There it is - within only a few minutea rush. Burns a bit. Heart rate ↑, jaw hurts, hands clamping - like a lobster. Tummy a bit turned. Passes within a few minutes.
Next up Rapéh - remember your intention. Eyes open, breathe through your mouth…
To serve this they use a long curved pipe (called a Tepi). They pour the snuff into their end - you insert the other in your nose and then they blow it in. It's not a small amount - about a tbsp per nostril... It def burns a bit. First nostril (right) - a little breathless. Left wasn’t so bad. Calm, connected with my breath. Grounded. Sit tall, Enjoy the view. Hear the music, feel the music. Clap - YOU DID IT!
08.07.26 - Iboga
My intention
Do not be afraid. There is nothing to fear - only lessons, only love.The hard moments are part of my healing. The only way is through. I release resistance, surrender control and trust that what I need will come. I choose curiosity, courage, surrender and love. Please guide me.
My commitment:
I stay present. I notice what I see. Every sensation is temporary. Every vision is a gift. Every emotion is a teacher. If discomfort arises, I meet it with calmness, knowing growth will be there. There is brightness if I step through it. I am safe. I am exactly where I am meant to be. My mind is healing. My heart is opening. My spirit is remembering. My soul knows the way. I say YES to healing, truth, love, purpose, abundance, courage and the life I am meant to create. I am becoming who I was always meant to be.
Please show me the way. Please show me the truth. I am ready. I am open. Thank you!
XOXO Britt
Starting at 5:30 am - well I didn’t wake up to my alarm - woke at 5:28 - shit! Next thought - this is prob a good thing - less time to overthink.
Fire ceremony - sunrise, beautiful facilitators and company!
Medicine - powder - two scoops into your mouth, rinse it down with water. “It's bitter. Don’t spit it out or make faces, respect the medicine”. It actually didn’t taste bad at all, just like ground up bark.
The journey itself was a bit frustrating at the beginning… Almost immediately after the dose I felt like I was going to purge - mission aborted.
We layed on our beautiful cots and waited… still nothing - another dose (in capsule form)… still nothing (I’m not sure how much time has gone by).
Eyes closed - vibrant amazing BWITI music blaring. Another two capsules.
Now I can start to feel it. Faint visions, many unclear but it's a start.
Mirror exercise with Ixchel - awkward @ first because compliments and self praise or admiration make me uncomfortable. It got easier. In the end it was very heartwarming. Great exercise. My mind is starting to go deep into reasons for my blocks. A few more visions but still semi dull…
Three more scoops!!! Little bit more visions, wait… another capsule. Getting better but ya know, still not really!
I purge a little - no biggie. Wait… Another dose. Bigger visions but I still don’t feel as though it’s really full on.
This was likely due to expectations based on what I was told about other experiences and our buddy Google. Shouldn't go in with expectations, everyone's experience is different and encompassed in what they need.
Ixchel comes to take me to the bathroom. I’m a bit shaky now.
Lay back down. My mind is really going now. A little check in - I’m still feeling like I need another dose (as if I actually know, but one of my fears was that it doesn’t work).
Ixchel says she cannot serve me more medicine - it’s too much. She says I'm a warrior. Could also be my high tolerance to meds.
About 15 minutes I am served one more dose; now we are rocking!
Throughout this I can sense Daniel on my left… He’s going through the same things… Soulbro - literally. We relate extremely well and he came for mostly the same purposes as I.
Visions
A lot of nature! Trees, birds, fish, sealife, a frog swimming by, butterflies, a lot of men butts (wtf), Grandma? It was dull and then morphed, a pink balloon - horizontal pulling a baby in a carriage, a lot of babies actually, so many stars, the Galaxy, a dump truck unloading a bunch of crates that scattered into the galaxy. Then a huge ball of stars that scatter, shooting across the sky. Me in a space craft being shot from the ocean into the cosmos, that was fun! Edit this - I wrote this down but cannot recall the context, must have read it in the visions. Daniel saw a pink hippo with butterfly wings - that's fun!
About 12:00 and it's getting hot, time to shift to our rooms. Slow, slow… I'm not very sturdy.
I feel functional enough so I go to the bathroom. Purge. Damn it - there’s capsules in there - hope they were mostly dissolved.
Milton brings soup, yay! Milton brings more soup and a fab cran and Topo Chico. Snuck in electrolytes because he knows I don't like them ♡
Ixchel comes. It's time for another exercise - Eye gazing → focus Britt!! Not too hard until I start purging again. Back to bed.
Ixchel comes back with a very special Ghungroo. It was gifted to her by her Shaman teacher in the Dominican. It brings good things I'm told. She uses that and smudge around me for several minutes. It makes a beautiful sound, very soothing. For the first time in my life I cried tears of happiness X 3.
From here on out it’s some visions (subsiding) and more introspective thoughts - Come on buddy, reset my mind. Clean house! Reorganize. Leave it shiny. Thank you! I I hope Daniel is having a great experience across the hall.
Up almost all night (dosed off for maybe two hours). For the first time in my life I cried tears of happiness X 3.
